An eating disorder when you are ‘fat’

*TRIGGER WARNING* If you have an eating disorder when you are skinny to begin with, you are ill and need help. If you have an eating disorder when you are 'fat' to begin with then you are congratulated on your weight loss. Growing up I was never a skinny child. I was rather plump looking…

I had a baby…and I didn’t like him.

I've contemplated writing this post for a good three weeks now and even sat writing this now I'm anticipating so much hate and annoyance from people. 7 months ago I gave birth to my son Finley and after a brutal pregnancy and even worse labour, I thought the hard times and struggle with him was…

Please don’t stare at my screaming child…

Please don't stare at my screaming child, she's not naughty honestly. She's extremely worked up and finding it difficult to tell us this. She's angry, upset and so uncomfortable. She's covering her ears and screaming at the top of her voice, but she's not naughty...honest. She's not playing up to get her own way and…

C is for Colic

I remember giving birth to Erin and her being this perfect newborn who slept really good hours, rarely cried and settled instantly after her feeds. Now in no way am I saying Fin is any less perfect, because his little grey eyes and chunky little cheeks fill me with the same intense joy that Erin…

When 3 became 4…labour and delivery story!

It's taken me 4 weeks to write this post. 28 days of trying to gain some normality, adjust to being shared between 2 tiny humans and 2 weeks to adjust to being me again; me without a huge baby bump, me still struggling with my mental health and me not sharing my everything with a…

Pregnancy Diary Baby Number 2: Week 27 & 4D Scan!

I've found these last few weeks a real struggle, not just pregnancy related but mentally and physically too. I feel that I'm really slipping into old habits of lacking in motivation and energy. I do admit this could all be down to just generally being tired and in pain and it all influencing each other…

Pregnancy Diary Baby Number 2: Week 23

This week I have officially began nesting (incredibly early!) I also discovered the amazing Mrs Hinch this week and honestly my life is completely changed. Admittedly it hasn't helped with my urge to nest but I suppose there is nothing wrong with wanting to clean? I may do a completely different post on my nesting…

Pregnancy Diary Baby Number 2: Week 22 & GENDER REVEAL!

I've been MIA (after doing so well) for nearly 3 weeks now and for good reason, I promise. After our 20 week scan we had quite a serious scare and potentially life changing news. But after 2 weeks of tests, a very sore and nerve-wracking amniocentesis and lots of waiting we have thankfully been given…

Pregnancy Diary Baby Number 2: Week 19

I don't quite think I've come to grips with writing these pregnancy updates again yet and this pregnancy still doesn't feel real! Every pregnancy is so different and this one is no exception, it's such a different experience to what I've previously had and it's going so fast this time; kind of hoping that continues…

The Worst Is Over: The First Trimester.

*baby loss & miscarriage trigger warning* Every pregnancy is filled with worries and woes, I can vouch for this. Even though loss and disaster can happen at any point during or after pregnancy my particular anxieties generally revolve around the long, daunting and much dreaded first trimester. Personally this is when all of my losses…